Dreams

Lack of sleep and feeling restless has been one of my issues lately.
Soon ill go to the US and that is atleast something that im looking forward to.
To meet up with lisa and then seeing my old school buddy Ben.

Today i started cleaning out the last box of stuff. Why i havent gone through it untill now i have no idea why. While going through it i find the meyers briggs test results showing that i am:
ENFP/ENTJ. I went through the personal aspects that these resulted personalities have and its scary how well they match to who i am. I also came across all my acceptance letters to universities.
Dear Anton carlsson the university of Edinburgh would like to welcome you to the bachelor program in psychology. Essex, Kent, Webster, Dublin damn i have even been accepted to a university in Boston. WHY oh WHY is the swedish school system so gay that i wont let me get in without going through a hell lot of work before i can study anything?
I know life is short and since i am of the spontanious type that dont think things through, why dont i just go abroad and study? Why dont i follow up one of my million dreams?
Should i do something thats just for me? Not thinking about everyone else and just do something that would make me happy.

Im worried as hell about everything again. I cant get my mind straight. Erik is going to china.
Mattias might go elsewhere to study. Danni is leaving for australia. Lisa might decide to stay in the US.

Why dont i pack my things and just go.
Leave everything and keep those that matter and move forward through life.
Become the things i dream about.
Do all those things i want to do, and just live my life without the regrets i promised myself i would not have.
That i would become old without regretting my life but being ready to die because i have nothing left to do!

I am going to get in touch with my old university advisor back in germany and ask for help and see if i can apply for some universities.

i will do as any ENFP would do! ill keep all doors open

its been awhile

There has been some time now since i wrote my last entry.
Alot has happened since then.
We have had the most awesome time at my summer house during midsummer. The gang me, hochie moma, sugar daddy and leasy. With the addition of Oscar.
Since then ive started dealing with certain things that i havent dared open up to other people.
And it feels great!
Leasy has left for the states but its only 25 days untill i go and meet another one of my friends in texas! :)
Its going to be a blast, allt the places where we have to eat and so on and so forth.
Now im sitting in oscars appartment in sthlm and just enjoying life. We were out with some of his friends yesterday and it was so fun. Life is fun!
Well now we are going to go eat breakfast somewhere
cheers

Habibi - Amr Diab